5am wake up call.

:|.

yvonne(my mom) woke me at 5 o clock this morning for no reason at all.

except for to come at me hot.

this is exactly how the convo went.

her:vanessa you have a boyfriend?

me:no.

her: vanessa you sleeping with someone?

me:no.

her: you still a virgin?

me:yes.

clearly when i do start having sex she will not be one of the 1st ppl i tell.

on another note.

saw babylove last night.

of course i couldnt get enough.

sucks it'll be a month and change before i see him again.

i hope we can get away this winter.

kryptonite.

is what i feel like.

and not even on some okie dokie shxt.

but on some theres something wrong with me type shxt.

and im pretty sure im just fine.

sometimes tho, i feel like its impossible for me to get nething right.

whatevz, such is life.

fuck this shxt.

im more mad than hurt.

my tears are outa anger and frustration.

i guess second best is all i'll know.

yup that sounds abt right.

impatiently waiting.

IF MY FUCKING ITUNES DONT FIX IT SELF BACK TO THE ORDER IT WAS IN BEFORE I WILL FLIP, p.o.s.

waiting.

i waited 3 yrs.

whats a few more months?

again.

with the fucking waterworks.

i quit.

lmao.

so suz is unhappy.

i'm unhappy.

so u got 2 unhappy ppl tryna cheer each other up.

fail? an epic one.

its been a while.

but i have something personal to say so its ure turn.

as i was going thru my i.m logs looking for something.

i came across old aim convos from when me and 'him' first became acquainted with eachother.

and i have to say i miss those times.

even tho he's a complete asshole.

he's still a somewhat cool guy.

and i feel like a total douchebag for feeling like this b.c i know he's not thinking twice abt me.

but its whatevz.

im done being mushy now.

soo..

i made a new blog which wont be as personal as this one.

sadly tho i neglect both these bitches.

but whatevz nye was awesome.

they year so far has been pretty ok.

last sat was like freshman yr all over again.

video games with cris at the barragans.

the latter half of the night wasnt tho.

drinking/chilling with nelsito's friends.

it was pretty effing awesome.

ohh and c&n totally dig eachother.

which makes me smile.

so lets root for them guys.