amazing.

i have all these ppl around me.
and lately im always feeling lonely.
why?

alone.

i feel like i have no one in the time when i need someone the most.

sadness.

i feel sad.
and for some reason i feel wrong for feeling like this.
i wanna cry.
but every time the tears start to form i stop them.
everything is just so royally fucked up right now.

i wish ash could take me to vermont with her for thanksgiving.
but i know thats not possible.
-sigh-.
i dont know what else to write.

-till next time.


edit-i need something to take my mind of stuff.
a movie, a t.v show, anything.

hey guise.

i knew i couldnt keep up with this blogging nonsense.
but its w.e.

quite a bit has happened since we last spoke.
but honestly im too lazy to write abt it all.

however mai's baby shower was on saturday.
it was so much fun.
ivysaur and stephlova did a great job.
we all got drunk.
except for mai of course.
i gave this guy my number WILLINGLY.
like he didnt even ask.
i said "ivan lemme see ure phone"
he gave it to me and i put the digits in there.
the best part is i dont even remember if i gave him the right number.
either way i would like for him to call/text.
he was really cute.


the hangover on sunday fucking sucked tho.
i was up at 645 to get to work on time.
cuz i crashed at stephs place which is in east elmhurst.
it was so bad.
i couldnt even think of what to do with myself while i was at work.
shoutout to me tho for finally getting drunk.

choices of poison were:
and....
can we say mmm, mmmm goooood?
i think we can.

but really it was great seeing everyone i havent seen since we left h.s.
i cant wait for a da baby to be born.
she's gonna be gorgeous.


but im going to find some eats now.
CUZ I IS HUNGRAYYYY!