nothing at all.

is what i feel right now.
im so empty inside and its quite sad.
i rarely have a medium.
its either i have all the emotions in the world running thru me or none at all.
unfortunately right now its none at all.
sometimes i hate when i'm like this.
b.c i just stop caring and NOTHING matters.
most of the time this emptiness goes away by itself.
but sometimes i need a lil help.
and i dont think im going to get the help right now.

in other news i have one day left with my kids at my tennis job.
which also means i have one day left to talk to mr.levon.
i've basically been attracted to him since the spring.
its weird cuz we like eachother but neither one of us has said nething.
even some of the KIDS know.
its not that we have said nething to them.
apparently they're just good at reading ppl/feelings.
so yea if i dont talk to him tomorrow that will be the end of that.
ugh i hate having to talk to boys.
things were so much easier when were kids.
technically i have 2 days left at my tennis job but since my kids are going on a trip friday.
tomorrow will be the last day i see them till spring.
as much they drove me up a will these past few months i will miss them.
not all of them but enuff of them.

thats pretty much it.
i love my blogs never have a specific direction.